My top priority

My top priority
He who will never leave and never dies.
We don't have to work to impress God.
He knows who we are and accepts us with unconditional love.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

At last! Phew.





Modem entirely fixed. Wireless connection, configured. So there is no excuse for me not to blog, except plain laziness.Hehe.

Happy MoonCake Festival! The Chinese celebrates the Mid Autumn Festival, known locally as Mooncake Festival, on the 15th day of the eighth lunar month which falls today. Children in my neighbourhood are playing brightly -lit lanterns joyously as I type along. Tried any mooncakes? Bet everyone did. Macam macam ada. lol. Even yoghurt flavoured.

To explain my disappearance two nights previously, it was due to a blackout on Thursday afternoon, followed by lightning. And that blasted lightning got to my modem. Rentungla the component inside. I declared my modem r.i.p before sending it to the nearest Telekom branch, which was Batu Lintang on the next day. Thank goodness for the one year warranty or else have to fork out the moo-lah. On the same night too, while teaching the students in MJC, another power supply failure ensued sans the lightning. Needless to say, the whole MJC was in total darkness. Nicee. If it was another occurence of chain blackout in the whole state, be sure to hear numerous rounds of complain from the public. Not that I'm putting too much blame on SESCO or anything, sometimes these things are unavoidable, but without electricity, you might as well put my life or many lives on hold.

The consequence of no electricity for me, that is;
1. no internet ( I am a Facebook freak and MSN enthusiast)
Please listen to Hitz.fm for Rudy and JJ's rendition of "Hey hey you you, why aren't you on facebook?"

2. blur visibility at home (need light to mandi and other stuff too ma)

3. cool air from the fan or aircond (to keep the temperature ma, or else sweat like a oink oink)

The state of darkness only lasted for 30 minutes! Nasib, nasib. On Friday I was still internet-less. But thank goodness for the electricity.


So a friend of mine ar, very ho sim la, she introduced to me someone who could reconfigure my internet connection to keep me up on my toes especially in the online world.
After much cham-siong and all, he came on Saturday morning to work some magic that I failed to do myself, even after abusing my computer for answer. (Don't worry, no kicking involved)After less than an hour, he got it running just like that. Should I call it easy money for him? wahahhaa. Anyway, I changed my PCI Adapter to D-Link. I could then enjoy the full benefits of the internet. Chewah,haha. Service charge was RM50 and my PCI adapter was Rm40. I don't know if it's reasonable but he claims it is. Whatever it is I got my internet back and I am delirious. If I am somewhat overcharged, I'd pay him a visit for refunds!(just kidding)

All that settled, let's move on.I know I am a bit too old to listen to Jesse McCartney, he's like so freaking young compared to me, but I must say I absolutely love this song of his, "Just So You Know" taken from Princess Diaries II.






I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you,
but I can't move
I can't look away

And I dont know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why
I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize
it was always there,
just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

Oooh

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Whoa
Just so you know
Whoa
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know

Well in a way it makes me feel sad and yet it doesn't really involve me you know. Like I'm consumed with helplessness, I can't figure a solution out.Maybe I just want someone to know how I feel. I hope I can. Instead of being so cold and restrained, try opening the heart, just a little. And I just want that someone to know that, it's not worth being cruel when you can always be kind.



A chemist who can extract from his heart's element, compassion, respect, longing,
patience, regret, surprise and forgiveness and compound them into one can create that atom which is called love.
Kahlil Gibran


Even when someone has a doctorate it won't mean anything at all if he has no heart.

2 comments:

David said...

I find the talk of religon strange and hard to comprehend with my own views, but the writing very strong and interesting.

Sophia said...

Nice last part