Heartache

Am disheartened today. Just felt I had to jot in a few words or two. The heart is in silent turmoil. But they don't see it because I hide in a thousand smiles.

Today, I have doubts that I feel I need to address. Yet if I address them, I fear some will have grave consequences.What can I do?

So perhaps it is better to try to be strong in the wake of distress.
I slept for a while just now in order for me to continue my assignments. It will be another long night and possible long early dawn.This is the price to pay for the education of the young generation. We have been commented on, been compared to. Can we test the deep waters of faith?
If we waver, will it affect our integrity?

I used to believe I had a chance at happiness.
Now it is shattered because as usual it is one sided.
I will leave my two heartaches aside to make way for a better future.

I will be strong because I know God loves me.