Gravity

Gravity by Sara Bareilles is my inspiration for the day.
The lyrics run in my head so clearly over and over again as it helps me regulate my emotions. Intensity is what I am known for, either consciously or unconsciously.

Flaw or no flaw I embrace it as a part of who I am.
Like gravity, it pulls me down to reality, humbles and subdues me.
Hence, I accept this as a truth. I may or may not change but I know being who I really am is more powerful than denying it to be another.

I believe in choices. I believe we control what we will uncover. Unless the very thing that breaks us, is ourselves.

I have been down the road. Tired, beaten down by the weather of the world. Expectations, they serve me only contempt and sorrow when they have a standard so high to the point of perfection. Thus, I am coming down from that cloud, which have engulf me so long.

My memory, anything but frail, is a reminder of the faith I still have.It shakes me to senses.
My thoughts, no longer shadows.
My heart, my words, no longer a burden.

If possible, grant me more time

I wish I have more time.

I really do.

It feels like my hours are shortened every day of my life. Except weekends. Phew. What a relief.
But still, I can do more with extra hours.

Thank God for friends and loved ones who understand my hectic schedule. I know I cannot always be there for them but I can promise to try.

I am learning a lot from my past mistakes by starting to see the bits of pieces falling into place.

Lord grant me wisdom and patience for the things I cannot change. This too is my wish for everyone else.

Slowly, gradually, I want to be proud of myself for emerging stronger than ever.
We are all able people. We can make it, eventually.
Let's keep our hopes and spirits high.

Accepting life and myself

Before bed yesterday I stayed up awhile to do some arrangements of the thoughts. It was a cold night accentuated with slight rain, making it easier for me to relax after a long tiring day. Ironically I did not do much but still, maybe due to my age I started to feel its effects.

However so, I am back on my feet again this morning, being it a new day.

Thus, I am hopeful to start my day with the right kind of mindset.



First comes first, I must accept life with grace. It is a kinder way to acknowledge our limitations.

Secondly, I may not be the best, but I must not punish myself for that.

Third of all, my insights must be from above. This kind of wisdom is heaven-bound and worth learning.

In life, I may have hurt people and people may hurt me, but I have always believed that everything happens for a reason. I will not justify my actions because only God has the power to do so, but I stay true to my feelings. I do not deny them. If they are wrong, I will learn from them.

They say life is too short to be overlooked. Therefore, I feel it is time for me to have a more credible sense of perspective in life. I do not want to follow the crowd, nor do I want to lead.
If happiness has a price to pay, what more to say about love? This is the way of the world.
How reassuring it is that God is the total opposite.

I want to start anew again. Build my life up from scratch.Change. Too long have I lingered in the shadows of my insecurities. Now is the time.It can never be more right. There can be a no better tomorrow if we don't take siege of the todays of our lives.

Behold strength is defined in a new meaning. Sometimes being weak does not necessarily means you are discouraged and defeated. It will be the main drive for you and me to focus on the essentials.

The only way to be free is to be who you really are, within. Don't be afraid. Let us take comfort that this world is temporary but His kingdom will have no end.
Amen.

Relaxing Easter

Woke up with a fresh new feeling. It's God's day today and ours. Happy Easter! Today draws a significant meaning to our renewed faith. May we breathe in the air with much gratitude and a much deeper sense of belonging.

As Max Lucado puts it,

" Adopted but not transported.
New family, but not a new house.
We know our Father's name,
but we haven't seen His face.
He has claimed us,
but has yet to come for us."

Went to Starbucks Jalan Song with one of my closest friend today. She made time for me this afternoon so was touched lol. We enjoyed our sip of frappucino on her part, while I took chocolate since I am allergic to coffee. Yeah I know, what a shame right? I mean,come on, I am allergic to only coffee. Damn! Sophia, if you are reading this post, I know you love coffee to bits. You should come to this place! lol

Anyway the environment there was cosy. I like the design and the feel of the building itself. Even the decor suits my taste. Me likey. Seriously. Won't want to reveal more because I think it's up to the patrons of the place to decide for themselves when they make a visit. :D

I think I could spend hours chattering away here, except that my time is limited.
:)
Will be here again next week with my youngest sis.Am sure she'll dig this place too.


My rating for this place? 4/5. haha.

Be right back. :D

(Clears throat with some discomfort).lol. Am down with the annoyingly dreaded sorethroat. Looks like I am sleeping early tonight. The body feels a bit heaty and I think it's a sign that I have not achieved ample sleep. Maybe it's time to heed the warning.

I will be back with a vengeance soon lol after I recover. Until then :) adios.

Affairs of the Soul

I rarely heed the calling to sleep. Especially not when thoughts are still actively at work. Maybe because it has become a norm to write first before retiring for the day. Actually, more of a necessity.

Hence,today I am writing a letter to myself and to everyone else as a reminder of a love that we sometimes fail to see.

"Remember that you are valiant and true. Remember when no one else loves you, God will.
He believes in you and knows what you are capable of.
He knows every single thing about you.
Remember when importance holds so much esteem in the eyes of the world,
your humble state makes you His precious one,
He walks with you in your joys and darkness,
embraces you and declares you not as a burden but a blessing.
He has sent you a star to guide you through, this peril is never meant to last.
God be with you, be brave child.
Be you.
Love is the greatest power He has bestowed upon you.
Where there is love, let there be forgiveness.
God is the treasure in our poverty-stricken life.

Beauty may leave us,
Wealth may disappear,
but a man, yet not a man,
had loved us so much,
that he became one of us,
sealing the ultimate sacrifice of redemption."

To Jesus Christ, because you choose the nails.

"I will bear your dark side," He promises.
And the path to the cross tells us exactly how far God will go to call us back.

God loves that face in the mirror.

En cette foi je veux vivre et mourir
In this faith I wish to live and to die. -Francois Villon

OMgoodness.lol

After such a long long drought of the mind, I am slowly returning to the writing scene, as in blogging lol. Anyway, I had difficulties in accessing this blogger.com too so thus fueled my procrastination as well. That aside, I am back. Many things have happened and many will stay in the memory as lessons of the past.

As Peter Ustinov puts it, "The point of living, and of being an optimist, is to be foolish enough to believe that the best is yet to come." and with that comes Albert Einstein's quote,"It's a miracle that curiosity survives formal education."

Last week, I have left the city awhile for a day, to seek some form of peace in a vast building surrounded by books. I had no idea how on earth my visit there could actually tone down my insecurities. Surprisingly it did, crazy as it seemed. Yet, it is terrible somehow to note that I have to escape in order to be free? Why me? Every sense of competitiveness dies every day. I am at the full stops of my crossroads. I do not want helplessness to consume me. The coldness of the environment heightened my refusal to return to routine. But time will eventually runs its course again, and I want the will to rise again, care not for the disappointments and failures soon to deter me. I submerge myself in writings because I am able. I am quiet to be in communion with what I lack.

Alone but not broken. Forgotten but not discouraged. Ordinary but special to few. The cost of happiness is priceless.